Disguise

It's just another manic......saturday??

Saturday, January 08, 2005 // 4:30 PM

That's right...it's just another manic....saturday? Yeah, I know I just totally went against the law of song lyrics but still, it kind of suits my purpose. Actually, it doesn't at all. Today has been the most boring day of my life. I want to go to the mall, I want to go to a basketball game, I want to clean my room, I want to do homework, I want to go to college, I want to go out an party like I've never done!!!! Yeah, I am going absolutely crazy sitting here and doing nothing. Right now, I am watching Wayne's World and writing this blog, as well as looking at people's away messages and info's. My great grandma went to the hospital a couple of days ago with multiple strokes and a urinary tract infection that has gotten into her blood stream. She didn't look like she was going to make it through the night but amazingly she is doing better! I am actually surprised, I mean, it isn't like I wanted her to do die, but I know that she is not happy, and she has no idea what is going on and is scared and moody. She always said that if she couldn't think correctly, then she didn't want to live. I know it's sad, but that's the truth. I think I feel the same way about it. If I had alzheimers and I was tot he point that I was practically a vegetable, I don't think I would want to live either. She can't do anything and it is so sad. I can't even look at her without crying. She doesn't know who I am or my sister is or any of my family for that matter, except for my dad. She loves my dad and I don't think she could ever forget him. Once she passes, I will definitly miss her, but I know that it would only be for the best and that I shouldn't be selfish with her life, that I should be happy that she lived and glad to have known her. Some people, unfortunately, aren't that lucky to see their great grandmothers and I am sorry for them. I never got to see my great grandfather on my mom's side, but I did my dad's. Well, enough with the depressing stuff. Last night we went to Andy's house and watched a movie. We had to wait for a while because Marcus and Meredith were supposed to bring the movie but they didn't show up until about 10:15 or so. We watched it and then John made a concrete thing for us to sign our names in as the shindiggers. It was really cool. I would never have thought of doing that. Clever, eh? Well, I guess I am going to go clean my room some more because it takes me a couple of days to do so, I get preoccupied sometimes and tend to let my mind wander off of what I am supposed to be doing. Bede, Bede, Bede, That's all folks!!
~Special K~