Disguise

Perpetual sleeplessness

Sunday, May 07, 2006 // 10:48 AM

Well, I had planned on not sleeping last night, and that is just about what I did. I took a bit of a power nap from about 6:30 to 9:00 this morning but other than that, I have calculated up that I haven't slept for a solid 61 hours. I have had 9 hours of sleep thus far in the past 3 1/2 days. This is getting a little on the ridiculous side but in the words of Track Star, "What are you gonna do???" Shannon and I are going to be hitting up the ole' game Mall Madness until lunch is ready. Frankly I can smell it up here and it smells "simply irresistable." I have been in a really weird mood..... not a bad one, a good one..... but weird nevertheless. I'm just really...... alive I guess you could say, or lack of a word thereof. I'm just really trying to be happy, put myself on the line, and make me happy with whatever it takes. I'm still just as considerate of others, but I really need to listen to my wants and needs too. I guess I just haven't really done that in a long time. I don't even remember what it feels like to beee selfish. I'm staring this can of Maxwell House Hazelnut coffee right in the face and I want it realllllly badly. I guess you could say I'm an addict, considering I also had some at the Court this morning. It wasn't really that good. See, I drink my coffee black or with slight creamer but this stuff needed sugar and it still didn't effect it in any way. I think I might make me a pot while I am cleaning up this junk heap called my room. It has soooo much stuff just piled in here because I brought all my stuff home from college and I have nowhere to put it until it is completely organized. That's right, and organization party!!! Welp, I'm out. Peace, nomaste, whatever else Casie says when she is talking to Jess (so I don't know any cool words of my own, big fat deal) >:{( (hahah he has a moustache)